June 17, Monday.

Back To School.

Eto na naman ang mga araw na ipagdadamot sa bawat estudyante ang kapangyarihan para matulog at magpahinga. Kaya bilang isa sa mga tamad na kolehiyala, kelangang motivated ako pagpasok. Kaya naman merun akngo simpleng paraan para sipaging bumangon at kumilos…

And here comes may poging sked. Kulang pa ng dalawang subj at sana dun sila mapatapat sa mga bunging vacants ko para naman di ako ugatin sa inip sa pag-iintay ng susunod na klase.

Advantage: Dahil pogi at well-organized ang sked ko, less lates at bawas absents ako ngayong sem.

Disadvantage: Baka sa halip na bumangon ako ay pantasyahin ko na lang abs at V-line ni Channing Tatum.

At oo nga pala FIFTH YEAR na ako ngayong school year! Kahit pa Octoberian ako e excited pa din ako sa mga susunod na araw, lalo na sa OJT ko, sa sunod pa nga lang na pers sem yon. Pero mabilis na yun, alam kong saglit lan at lilipas na tong taong toh at maya-maya e 2014 na at ga-graduate na din ako at gagawing proud ang mga taong nakapaligid sakin, masusuportahan ang pamilya ko, mabibili ang mga gadgets na gusto ko, manunuod ng concert ng mga paborito kong banda, bibili ng madaming sapatos, mag-aampon ng aso, mag-iipon ng pang-kotse at bagong bahay, maghahanap ng asawa. Chot. Haha. Dame agad nasabi. Basta, sa ngayon, ay good morning muna at tayo ay bumangon na para simulan ang araw na toh.

At tada! My morning face, fresh from bed. lol. Kunware may ganap sa post na toh yang pic. Mai-segway lan. Haha.

Source: mhdl

16 June 1 Permalink

Para sa lalaki na magiging threat sa career ni Daniel Padilla,

Para sa pangalawang lalaki na nagpatunay saken ng unconditional at forever na pagmamahal sa mundong toh,

Para sa lalaking tinuruan ako kung pano maging matibay at panindigan ang mga desisyon ko,

Para sa lalaking kakampihan at susuportahan ako sa kung anumang bagay ang gawin ko,

Para sa lalaking nagpapa-cute pa lang ako, alam na at binibigay na ang kelangan ko,

Para sa lalaking dahilan ng pagsisikap ko sa pagpasok sa school kahit pa Sabado na,

Para sa lalaking lagi kong binabantayan sa inuman nung kabataan nya pa pero takot na sa alak at yosi ngayon, 

Para sa lalaking kasama ko sa pagbuo ng mga pangarap ko,

Para sa lalaking kilala at saulo ang buong AKO,

Para sa lalaking laging bida sa buhay ko,

HAPPY FATHER’S DAY, Tay! Alam ko naman na alam mo din kung gano kita sobrang grabeng kamahal. Na kahit pa bigyan ulit ako ng panibagung buhay ni Daddy Bossing e ikaw pa din ang pipiliin kong maging Tatay at ang pamilya pa din na binuo mo ang hihingin ko SaKanya. Basta, stay put lan, Tay. Onting push na lan, matutupad ko na ang pinapangarap natin diploma at ang mga bagay na pinangako ko sayo! Ako bahala sayo, sagut kita! <3

15 June 3 Permalink

dexternews:

I have recently fallen into a confusing state of mind. One that I would rather not call depression, but it feels a lot like it. I don’t know exactly if I can call it that since I know people who have/had been depressed and wouldn’t want to call this anything more than it actually is. 

I generally dislike appearing sad in public or with friends and family so I wouldn’t be surprised if they didn’t know where this is all coming from. I also don’t know why I feel this way so I can’t really respond if they do ask me that question. I guess I have always thought of sadness as such an unattractive quality. As I type that sentence, I already see a problem - I always concern myself with what appears to be attractive or unattractive in front of other people. I don’t know why. Maybe I’m just built that way (maybe I should start building myself up differently). 

But I guess the most alarming thing for me is I feel helpless all the time even when I know I shouldn’t. I have this overwhelming need to always be with other people even if they’re just right there in the corner minding their own business or at least if I know I can have easy access to a physical human connection whenever I please. Like, it helps if I have plans during the day or if I’m out with friends just sitting down and smoking cigarettes. The important thing is for me to have access to people I care about on a daily basis.

This is very new to me because I have always liked being alone. What frightens me, perhaps, is the idea that maybe I am no longer comfortable in my own skin. But at the same time, I would hate to be dependent on other people and I apologize to anyone in particular if I have made [you] feel that way. I would hate to go into detail, but I have recently craved for attention from a select number of people because I simply enjoy their company. All the while (now realizing) that I have been very selfish. I am sure they have their own set of things to problematize. I am sure they have other friends, and even maybe they don’t enjoy my company as much as I enjoy theirs. And that’s okay. 

Everything is all jumbled up inside my head and I wish I could share it with someone but I can’t when I know I probably mean that much to them. I really would rather not burden anyone. I know this may sound like I have very little regard for my own well-being (or have very low self worth), but I don’t. It’s just the truth for me. It is rare for anyone to encounter people who will treat you like you actually mean something to them. I know I’m toying with things in my head which I have no control over, but I don’t know. I really don’t know.

Anyway, I hope I change soon because all of this is driving me crazy. 

Source: patiss

11 June 87 dexternews Permalink

An Octoberian’s Confession

Normal lang namang pangarapin ng isang estudyante na maka-graduate on time, pero nun pinasok ko tong course (Petroleum Engineering) kong toh sa university (BatStateU) na toh, natanggap ko na din na malabo pa sa baha na makaka-graduate ako ng March kasabay ng mga nagkukumpetensyahang creatures sa department na pinatakan ko. Pero potek, minsan talaga kahit pa alam mo na manyayare nga ang mga ganitong bagay, nakakapanlambot pa din pag andun ka na sa puntong yun. Na sana isang sem ka na lan, tas OJT tas graduate.

Kaya ko pa naman tyagain hanggang October siguro, mali, dapat ko pala talaga tyagain, pero medyo jahe na madidisappoint ko yung mga taong naniwala sakin. Di naman ako nagkulang sa pagpapaalala sakanila na di ko kakayanin na March graduate, pero bakit kase ang taas-taas ng ineexpect nila sa tamad at di naman karunungan na kagaya ko. Alam ko na sasabihin nila na ok lang naman, pero ramdam ko din yung panghihinayang nila. Kung ako nga mismo, wasak na wasak pagkasabi saken kanina habang nag eenroll na octoberian ako, akala ko kase kaya pang hapitin hanggang summer. :((

Anyways, salamat na din sa pamilya ko na napaka-lawak ng pang-unawa na di naman ako nasermunan or whatsoever nun nagsabi ako kanina na Octoberian na ko. Official na. Though me konting kwestyon at “yamuna, blahblah” na kinonsider ko na lan as words of pampasipag. Ayos na yun, kesa naman tumahimik lan sila at paki-simpatyahan ako, dahil kung nagkaganun, baka sabog ang iyak ko non. Pero tangina talaga, ansakit sa heart!

10 June 7 Permalink

Everybody loves to tell what you can and can’t do. But ultimately, whatever you are considering on doing, or giving up, the choice is yours. People are gonna tell you who you are your whole life. You just gotta punch back and say “no, this is who I am.” Want people look at you differently, make them. You wanna change things? You have to go out there and change them yourself. Because there are no fairy godmothers in this world.

—Emma Swan, Snow White’s daughter, Once Upon A Time.

Source: mhdl

6 June 4 Permalink

Taking it to the next level…

Di ko alam kung bakit bigla akong naging health-concious, no, lemme rephrase that, naging body-concious. Back when I was highschool, I used to have this abs. Di sa pagiging conceited, pero totoo yun. Tapos bigla ko yatang na-miss kaya I installed certain apps on my mobile to keep me fit, to make me fit.

So far, one week na ko with Daily Yoga. I don’t really know if it brings the flat abdomen/belly on me kase di naman talaga malaki ang tiyan ko. Kaya, medyo depressed ako dito. Pero, I’ll continue this. Baka naman kase late bloomer lang ako. Haha.

Tapos, due to random tweets of my cousin’s gf abt sit-ups, ayon, medyo gusto kong i-try. Kaya early this morning after yoga, i searched exercise vids, more on sit-ups vids, natutunan ko pa na may mga types pala yon. As usual, I know the common type, try to do it and fail. Don’t really know where I get this motivation and still look for other sit-up procedures. And fortunately, discovered the so-called bicycle sit-ups. Keri naman. Did 3 sets, 20sit-ups/per set. At putangina! Ayoko na! Bukas na ulit.

This taught me one thing:
“EXERCISE VIDEOS ARE TRICKING. If you know what i mean. lol.”

Source: mhdl

4 June 5 Permalink